21st, 22nd and 23rd of February a little depressed.... (Again?)

Hey everyone!!!!

What kind of phone do you have? An old, ugly Nokia phone, I broke my last one, by forgetting it in the laundry and my mom and dad would only buy me a new one if it was some cheap shit.

21st: Ella said there wasn't room for Carol, so I told her. And she got kinda upset (I would have too, if it was me, I just wouldn't have shown it) And she said I stood her up, and that I was thinking about myself because they were more popular than her, and she just went on and on and on. I felt bad, but I didn't want to blow of the deal with the other girls, cause then it would be like she won. So I will keep up the fight.

22nd: I was supposed to play guitar with Abby and Isabella, but they both had othe plans. But then in the afternoon Abby told me that she had time, and I went to her house, and we played guitar and she gave me advise about Carol. She told me that if  I cancelled my "date" with the other girls, it would be like letting her win. I don't know what to do, I feel bad about it.

23rd: Carol has been sick since tuesday, and she hasn't been to school, so I have had plenty of time to think about what I'll do. When I walked home from school with Carol H., we also talked about it, she told me to do whatever I wanted to do. When I got home I called Abby to ask her if I was a chicken if I cancelled the other thing. She told me that if I just did it in a way where she wouldn't win, then it was okay. So I wrote to Carol that I didn't really want to go to the other thing anyways and that I guess I could do it with her instead. And her answer was; Okay I told Charlotte she could come over around four. I would like you to come!. She already had a girl to get ready with, and she didn't tell me and I cancelled my other thing to be with her! :O She could have told me! Well too late now, so I'm hanging out with them. Charlotte will only make it more fun. Later I went to play some soccer, and seriously I sucked SO bad today! I was so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so bad! And I don't really have any friends on the team either, so I'm like the loser who can't play soccer. Sigh sigh. Two more things to put on my new years resolutions; "Get better at soccer" and "Get better at talking to people, get more friends"! I hope I can soon check something of that list! After soccer I got a little depressed, cause I sucked at everything, my confidence just fell alot. But I'm holding up ;)

That's that. I promise a million times that I will try to blog every day, I'm so sorry. And I will do more fun stuff, so you don't just have to listen to me bitch about my life. Haha. Hope I will soon get some followers! Pleeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase follow me if your reading this! :D Love M.E <3