3rd, 4th and 5th of May - A new resolution!

Hey folks!

Again I have missed some days, and it really sucks! I don't have a good excuse, and I don't know why I don't just blog every single day? I will just tell you a little about these days.

Thursday the 3rd of May: When I came home from school, I decided that I wanted to get tanned, so I went out on our balcony to well.. get tan. I didn't get that tan, but I did get a little color. So while I was out tanning I was texting Matt. And all of the sudden he asked if I have a boyfriend. I joked and said "Yeah I have 25!!" but then wrote another one saying "Noo why?". Then he was like "Just curious", and I just said "Okay". Then he said that he 'might' think I'm cute??? I was like whaaat? You MIGHT?! So I just wrote to him that I think he is very very nice, but not in that way at all. And I think he accepted it.

Friday the 4th of May: I was at something called a "confirmation", my cousin Andy got confirmated and held a big party. It was okay, but I always find these parties a little boring, and this was no exception. I did take a lot of pictures, and that was fun. I was also texting Paul all day, and in the evening when we were on our way home, I decided to ask him "the question". Which is if he likes me in that way, cause like I told you in earlier posts, he told Carol T that he likes me, and my other friend Allison thought that I should ask him myself. So I finally did. It took him a while to answer and when he did, it was like a random fact, he was obviously changing the subject. But I did get him to answer and his answer was "Yes and no" because he doesn't really know me, but he thinks I'm cute/nice so he likes me very very little. Know it was kind of awkward between us.

Saturday the 5th of May: In the morning Paul wrote to me again, so he said that he thought we should put the awkwardness behind us, and I fully agree. So we did. I spent the day cleaning my room, making my sisters room ready for her arrival back home the 10th of July (she has spent a year in the US to go to high school). And around 2 pm, Paul wrote to me about maybe going to hang out. I was like NOOO at first, but then I realized that I really really should hang out with him some time, cause we have soo much in common, and it's sad to only be friends over texts! But unfortunately we didn't hang out, it got really late so I just told him we should do it another day ;) And I'm actually looking forwards to it. Even later my mom got really mad at me and my dad, because of something stupid. And even though it was stupid, it made me think that she is really good at telling everyone how she feels, although it's not always a good thing. But I actually in some weird way admire her.. I cannot tell people how I feel, I just can't. So my new resolution is to get better at telling people how I really feel. I know it's late to put in a new one, but better late than never, right?

Soo resolution number 10: To get better at telling people how I really feel.

That's it, I hope you enjoyed, soon there will be new tips, yaaaay! Love M.E<3