Hey girls,
Now I'm usually the one giving a little advice, but today I could use some myself.. If you have read my blog for a while, then you know all about how Carol H is one of my best friends, but at the same time I don't like her, only because everyone always likes her more than me. And obviously I'm jealous of her, cause I can definitely see why they all would choose her over me, she's perfect. And I am always everyones 2nd choice.
1st of all Matti and Carol has had a little something something going on for a while, but they kissed for the first time this monday. And even though I've known that they liked each other for a while, it still bummed me out.. I guess I was always hoping that he would turn around and like me instead. And this sounds horrible, but I think I might just like him because he is interested in her. Or maybe not? I did like him a bit after we came home from Spain, and I'm convinced that he also likes me a bit, or maybe I'm completely delusional?
2nd of all today I found out that Phil, another guy I've been crushing a little bit on (I really don't why but I just have) texts to her often, and keeps asking her to chill with him and stuff like that. He has my number but has never texted me..
..the worst thing about these cases is that they treat me like they like me, the minute she's not around for them to hit on, and then when she's there I'm like freaking air! I just think that they should either just like her or talk to me all the time. I feel like shit! I feel like I'm just not good enough! I feel like no one would ever choose me over her! I feel like people only like me until they've met Carol! I don't feel like ever introducing my future boyfriend (if I ever get one) to her, cause I'm afraid he will dump me right away and jump on the Carol-train!
I seriously don't know what to do, I try not to let it bother me but it does.. I think I hide it pretty well though, but inside I'm a mess. Please help me! Should I tell her how I feel? Or should I just try to change to be even more like her? Or should I just keep going on like I do right now? I really don't know what on earth I should do.. I just want someone to tell me that they like me more than her, and that's so damn selfish! But it's just what I need.. I know I'm an awful person!!!!!! but I'm still begging you to help me with this mess :(
Love,
ME<3
Well It helps if you and Carol have different friends.My best friend and I have totally different friends cause I do sports and band so i meet different people that have never met her.
SvarSletYou're right and we do also have different friends, but we go to school together and that way we talk to the same people. Thank you for the advice! :)
SvarSlet